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New Year, New Changes

Nicole Gasparrini

Just your average anxious teenage girl making her way through life. It’s rough, man, and I’m here to share my experiences in the hopes of helping others.

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    With the New Year comes lots of new changes, some good and some not so good. Inevitably, the biggest change for me comes in August – moving into college.

    Some of you reading this are probably sitting there thinking, “umm, a lot of kids go to college…what’s the big deal??” so let me give you a brief background on me.

    My name is Nicole and I am currently coping with my diagnoses of generalized anxiety and panic disorders, depression, OCD, and PTSD amongst several of my own more personal struggles. I know this blog has talked a great deal about OCD, and I want to thank Olivia for putting her own experiences into words. After reading many posts, I began to feel as if I was reading about my own life. I decided to talk to my doctor about some obsessions I was acting on and was put on a medicine that has helped reduce some of my symptoms. Who knows, I may even pop back in as a guest writer and talk about my own experiences.

    Now, back to the regularly scheduled program on leaving for college. The college I am choosing to attend is Franklin Pierce University in Rindge, New Hampshire. It’s 3 hours from my house and leaving home is the one barrier that still stands in my way. I still toy with the idea of just attending a local community college so I can live at home, but in reality, it’s just not a viable option.

    After visiting the school, I feel a bit more at peace with my decision to go there, and in the long run, it’s going to benefit me. I originally planned on getting a bachelor’s degree in nursing, but Franklin Pierce is not currently offering a nursing program. Instead, they have a pre Physician’s Assistant track. PA’s are in high demand right now and they earn a bit more than a nurse, ensuring financial comfort in the future.

    During my visit, I was looking for something wrong to talk myself out of going there, but I simply could not find anything. The food was great, the view was astonishing, and all the current students were so warm and welcoming. I looked up at a lamp-post and found my sign from the universe, “Welcome Home.” This is where I was meant to be.

    My sign that I was in the right place: “Welcome Home” #RavenNation

    I’ve boiled it down to: “you’d be stupid not to go, Nicole.” I get to wake up each morning to the breathtaking view of Mount Monadnock overlooking Pearly Pond lake, my dream comes true of moving North (I love cold weather), and, I get to dorm in the apartment style houses (featuring central air) if I accept the spot to be part of their honors society.

    All in all, I think I’m going to learn more about myself and grow as a person in this next chapter of my life. This is my opportunity to prove to myself that I can do anything I put my mind to, and I will not let anything in life hold me back.

    I hope you are able to take something away from this article, and if you are going to be a college freshman that deals with any form of mental illness, take this as your sign. Be the person to say “I can do it, I will do it, and oh, hey, look guys! I am doing it!”

    Wishing you all a happy and healthy 2019 and cheers to a new beginning!!


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