With the New Year comes lots of new changes, some good and some not so good. Inevitably, the biggest change for me comes in August – moving into college.
Some of you reading this are probably sitting there thinking, “umm, a lot of kids go to college…what’s the big deal??” so let me give you a brief background on me.
My name is Nicole and I am currently coping with my diagnoses of generalized anxiety and panic disorders, depression, OCD, and PTSD amongst several of my own more personal struggles. I know this blog has talked a great deal about OCD, and I want to thank Olivia for putting her own experiences into words. After reading many posts, I began to feel as if I was reading about my own life. I decided to talk to my doctor about some obsessions I was acting on and was put on a medicine that has helped reduce some of my symptoms. Who knows, I may even pop back in as a guest writer and talk about my own experiences.
Now, back to the regularly scheduled program on leaving for college. The college I am choosing to attend is Franklin Pierce University in Rindge, New Hampshire. It’s 3 hours from my house and leaving home is the one barrier that still stands in my way. I still toy with the idea of just attending a local community college so I can live at home, but in reality, it’s just not a viable option.
After visiting the school, I feel a bit more at peace with my decision to go there, and in the long run, it’s going to benefit me. I originally planned on getting a bachelor’s degree in nursing, but Franklin Pierce is not currently offering a nursing program. Instead, they have a pre Physician’s Assistant track. PA’s are in high demand right now and they earn a bit more than a nurse, ensuring financial comfort in the future.
During my visit, I was looking for something wrong to talk myself out of going there, but I simply could not find anything. The food was great, the view was astonishing, and all the current students were so warm and welcoming. I looked up at a lamp-post and found my sign from the universe, “Welcome Home.” This is where I was meant to be.
I’ve boiled it down to: “you’d be stupid not to go, Nicole.” I get to wake up each morning to the breathtaking view of Mount Monadnock overlooking Pearly Pond lake, my dream comes true of moving North (I love cold weather), and, I get to dorm in the apartment style houses (featuring central air) if I accept the spot to be part of their honors society.
All in all, I think I’m going to learn more about myself and grow as a person in this next chapter of my life. This is my opportunity to prove to myself that I can do anything I put my mind to, and I will not let anything in life hold me back.
I hope you are able to take something away from this article, and if you are going to be a college freshman that deals with any form of mental illness, take this as your sign. Be the person to say “I can do it, I will do it, and oh, hey, look guys! I am doing it!”
Wishing you all a happy and healthy 2019 and cheers to a new beginning!!